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"someone who finds beauty in every place she looks
spontaneous
artistic
ready for the world
outgoing
compassionate
free spirited" - a fellow blogger

Another transition period in my life!

I’m seeing now that I’m starting to lose some of my own identity with so many people around. So maybe during this crazy week and next week when ill be able to have more alone time, I’m gonna work on regaining me… Or in best views, Learning about the new me and becoming more involved in MY time and life. :)
More time for God and me :)

Only one that matters

I’ll go back to before we met try and erase the past, try harder to forget cause nothing will ever be as good as here and now. Because a simple life with you is still better than any of my childhood dreams.

Thank you do much for this. This is everything I’ve ever wanted to say back to all those bullies I had back in middle school and high school! This is actually helping me right now too to help accept the fact that I was built lean. Thank you!

Thank you do much for this. This is everything I’ve ever wanted to say back to all those bullies I had back in middle school and high school! This is actually helping me right now too to help accept the fact that I was built lean. Thank you!

(via )

great day but i needed to say this.

i stink at this stuff, i really do. i want you to be able to trust me, scratch that, i need you to trust me so i’m going to do whatever i can to help fix that… i just wish you could talk to me about this stuff because well, like i said, i stink at this stuff, no idea what i’m doing so i need to know what to work on so i can build your trust. you are really important to me and i want to know how to constantly improve on showing you that. and if it seem like i have a crush on anyone else, babe, you’re the one i would choose over and over again if i had to. i hope that helps you see that i really do want you over any other.

I like how this one connects to me through a new way than any of the prior. He can tell when there’s something wrong or when I need to be in a playful spirit or am going to worry too much or even when I start to feel uncomfortable with something. He pays good attention to these things and I never give him verbal credit for it but I feel like that is something that works better for him.
I have a real problem with letting people know whenever I’m mad or upset (sadly at anyone but my mum to be honest) and I completely push it off. If the person I’m upset at ever gets a hint of curiosity of it is them I am feeling negative towards I convince them otherwise. Not matter what it takes. As genie of a smile or glow as possible or the amount of time it takes to convince them. I just don’t do fights or heated arguments…at all. 
But this fellow, well he sees through it much better than anyone. Even the people I’ve known the longest and my own best friends. There’s just a whole new aspect to this relationship it’s a connection that is very much in tune to the senses… And not gonna lie, I’m kinda liking it.

I like how this one connects to me through a new way than any of the prior. He can tell when there’s something wrong or when I need to be in a playful spirit or am going to worry too much or even when I start to feel uncomfortable with something. He pays good attention to these things and I never give him verbal credit for it but I feel like that is something that works better for him.
I have a real problem with letting people know whenever I’m mad or upset (sadly at anyone but my mum to be honest) and I completely push it off. If the person I’m upset at ever gets a hint of curiosity of it is them I am feeling negative towards I convince them otherwise. Not matter what it takes. As genie of a smile or glow as possible or the amount of time it takes to convince them. I just don’t do fights or heated arguments…at all.
But this fellow, well he sees through it much better than anyone. Even the people I’ve known the longest and my own best friends. There’s just a whole new aspect to this relationship it’s a connection that is very much in tune to the senses… And not gonna lie, I’m kinda liking it.

I’m sure I’m not the only one who has had these kind of days. Right? You know the kind where you spend the whole day waiting around for that someone to spend the day with and then the clock keeps ticking by and you are still at home. Doing those random things around the house you’ve needed to do for awhile, just as something to do until they say they are free now and you two can share the rest of this awesome day you have in your mind together. Then you finish all of that and they still can’t yet so your watch a movie… Then 2. Now at this point your getting a little annoyed cause you start to think of all you could have been having fun doing with the 3 other people who texted/ called you today wanting to hang out that you turned down because you we’re so certain that one person would be able to get together with you at sometime and you’d be able to finally do at least some of those awesome plans you had for the day with each other… But I know you know as well as I that the person you wanted to see never ended up being available.
I’m not mad at that person, it’s cool and I understand. No, the person I’m mad at, is myself. I made expectations for this day that weren’t so willing to fall … Which almost always leads to a fall ironically. When will I learn my lesson.