velvet tulips

• Augustus Waters: hey i just met you
• Augustus Waters: and this is crazy
• Augustus Waters: but i think you're really pretty and you remind me of my dead ex and natalie portman as well and i really want you to come over my house and watch v for vendetta with me even though we barely know each other and i want to take you to amsterdam so you can live your dream because life is fleeting and my number's in this book
• Augustus Waters: so call me maybe

Venting time

Yes, I have insecurities. Yes, I drive myself crazy thinking what if you go back to her or just one day decide you don’t want me anymore. But I don’t say these things to you because I don’t want to be ‘that kind of girlfriend’ all I ever hear is guys complain about those girls but to be honest I think every girl has a dose or two of that in them…
I just really like this one… He doesn’t deserve having to think about that. And I just have been trying to change my behavior and how I speak and think about other men because I just don’t want to have to put him through this. I think I’ve been doing well but then again I only see one side of it, but I hope he sees it… Now I just some how need to figure out a way how to stop myself from thinking of him going back to her or deciding to not want to be with me anymore… I’m human, I’m insecure when it comes to love and that’s another one of my reasons for not wanting to be in a relationship for so long of a time. I just hope he sees how much I love him…

great day but i needed to say this.

i stink at this stuff, i really do. i want you to be able to trust me, scratch that, i need you to trust me so i’m going to do whatever i can to help fix that… i just wish you could talk to me about this stuff because well, like i said, i stink at this stuff, no idea what i’m doing so i need to know what to work on so i can build your trust. you are really important to me and i want to know how to constantly improve on showing you that. and if it seem like i have a crush on anyone else, babe, you’re the one i would choose over and over again if i had to. i hope that helps you see that i really do want you over any other.